Wednesday, 27 April 2016

Bit by bit

No matter how hard I try to obtain whats in front of me, my shadow keeps running backwards; wanting to be in the hands of something its familiar with.

Ha. Faham?
It has been 5 bloody long years Yana, crushes are called crushes because they crush you

You shouldve known better?

Sunday, 24 April 2016


"Can't live with them, can't live without them"
Theres plenty that I would love to say about this. And it has been stressing me out. So. Much. So. Damn. Much.

But, biarlah sampai situ je.

Thursday, 21 April 2016

I am not a busy kid anymore

and I'm losing my sanity!

I need to be busy in order to--
live properly.

I'm back at Shah Alam and things haven't been doing that good lately.
I miss Seri Iskandar so much that the first night I was at home I cried for hours and I couldn't fall asleep.

Macam tebalik but I guess I am attached w/ SI's surrounding. I created a routine that I loved there. Thus when I realized I need to stay here in Shah Alam for another 7 months, I cried, and cried, and, cried.

I guess I am not that flexible to major changes? Gosh I am not even certain of myself sebenarnya.
The other day, I had an interview for my intern.

"Tell me about yourself"

dalam kepala fikir -- I don't even know myself hahaha.
I am not certain of myself.

Will I ever be? Well Allah knows. I miss Him so much lately rasa macam bond dah decrease.

Ending this post with my latest picture, nope it doesn't even matter. I just like my new top that's why.

Sunday, 10 April 2016

Nope, just looking.

Its just that, I know what I want. I know for certain that love is not what I'm looking for right now.

It certainly is not.

But at times that loneliness strikes and I wonder... will I ever be loved?


"We accept the love we deserve" -- thus, is it possible to gain nothing because I feel like I deserve none? If I don't gain anything, I won't lose a thing, kan?