Monday, 25 December 2017

Grateful

I deactivated my social medias because it sort of makes me... unhappy without even realizing it. The expectations I have. The insecurities I get. The stupid things I was forced to see, yknow things like Sajat, Qu Puteh. HHA...A.... no. But the actual reason is purely just for myself. I expect a lot from life when I see perfectly curated things online, yknow? Perfect relationships. Perfect and happy girls who seems like they never got sad.

But aaaanyhow I'm still on Tumblr, Youtube and here. Tumblr for me is just a perfectly equal balance of happiness and sadness. (It really depends on who you follow tho haha) and there's so much positivity in there. Body image positivity & so on and i think the people that I follow just celebrates diversity, difference and all the little things in life. Oh I'm still on Spotify ahaha. I mean... how could I not be?

Its Christmas Day today, it's the 25th of December. It's a Monday haha which is a plus plus plus because cuti! :-) I love long weekends. I spent my weekends with mama and Danial (seperately) oh but together too la. Danial came home on Saturday and we actually went out after hahaha we went on the most random trip.



We had the best day :-) we also had a good lunch :-)

Over the weekends we saw 3 movies. We saw Coco in the cinemas. Watched La La Land. Watched My Fair Lady. All three of them are great. All of them are musical too! I love musicals. I love Across The Universe, and also Moulin Rouge.

I've been really inspired lately and most of the inspirations came from these 3 youtubers and the things i reblogged on Tumblr.



She's a Designer and I watched all of her videos already... ha ha... I love her process of making the videos. She created everything by herself which is quite unique.



LaMadelyn, her channel is aesthetically pleasing. GosH. And she's so darn cute. I can't even. Watch her other videos too.



Conan. I love his music. He's an art student and I just love watching his journey from high school to uni. Moving from Texas to LA. He's at such a beautiful transition and the fact that he's documenting it and sharing them is just so good to see yknow.

Okay that's all for now :-)

Thursday, 21 December 2017

Hello sunshine!


A banner! Can't wait to use more of this tablet. I've been neglecting it for such a long time.

Monday, 9 October 2017

So, yeah

This is a bit private yet I know this blog doesn't get much visitors so I guess it should be okay for me to write about it here.

I have an ovarian cyst and its normal for women to have it. Went to the clinic without expecting it at all. It's normal to have it, it is. But it brought along hormonal imbalance.

I am already very driven by emotions when its the time of the month. Sometimes i feel like there is no in between, im either a zero or a complete 10.  Jealousy, feeling sad, feeling unworthy (gosh this is really really bad tho, sumpah i cant even) and the list of emotions goes on and on.

After the doctor told me the cyst would disturb my hormones, gosh everything makes sense... I was so, very much, so much, bitter towards the people around me. Now that i know better, i can actually talk some sense into myself whenever im under that grey cloud. Masih ambil masa, it didnt happen in a blink of an eye.

Oh well my next checkup is next month. So... We'll see.

Thursday, 28 September 2017

Playlist : Liyana

There's this one playlist on Spotify called Liyana.

Danial created it for my birthday. And on my birthday, we went out and this playlist was the soft velvet running through my ears.

Now whenever I listen to this playlist I could only remember the good times I had and all the places we went. Nothing seems to open on that day because it was a Sunday. But I had so much fun eating cakoi, driving around and taking photos.

I'm writing this as I'm listening to it :)


Wednesday, 12 July 2017

Just Thinking

I've been listening to the Stories of The Prophets by Mufti Ismail Menk.
Within every story/kisah in the Quran, there's something for us to learn.

Followers of each Nabi, compared to the other party, is always smaller.
The ratio is crazily uneven.
Sometimes theres only 2 followers versus a whole other community of people.
So what is it that we can learn from that?

The majority isn't always right.